Crashing, losing sight of things and getting back up

So now almost two weeks ago I had a car crash into me while cycling, it wasn't anything too bad but it messed up my plans for March. I had to wear a cast for 10 days so I couldn't move around that much and lifting my left arm was somewhat painful for a while which made picking up a camera pretty difficult.

Thankfully I'm all good now and I'm trying to figure everything out but I feel terribly guilty for not shooting for so long. I know I don't really have an obligation to shoot a certain amount every month but I still get the feeling I am letting myself down, the feeling that maybe I'm letting some of you down. On the bright side, I do have some five shoots that I have coming in the next few weeks - that being said I still feel like I should be doing more. Sure I had a crash and that may have affected my plans a little but why isn't there an event called "Dream Shoot" in my calendar this weekend... That's just because I've been slacking with organisation, it takes a ton of work to get all these people involved. Every shoot I do should be better than the previous one and this means getting more and more people involved, assistants, makeup artists, behind the scenes videographers etc. This shouldn't be used as an excuse however, to do great work a certain amount of hustle is required and I like to think that I work pretty hard but since I had that accident I've been slacking, now it's time to get my shit together.

Much of today I spent figuring out dates for the different shoots and it feels good to be getting that organisation done again, I still need to find a few assistants and wait for replies but things are starting to take shape. I'm super happy about that, just sitting around doing nothing for no obvious reason drags me down so much. I realise it's kind of an ironic thing to say since I really do have no plans for the weekend (but hey I have a free house so maybe I'll clear my mind - or does anyone wanna come over? :D) but it's true, More often than not I glance at my calendar and everything for the next three weeks is planned, it's a lot of work and moving around but I love it, I love it because I get to do photography, I get to work with the most amazing people and visit some stunning places and create some truly meaningful memories. and I can't wait to get back to that.

I also can't wait to get back on my bike again, it got pretty beaten up in the crash and currently it's still being fixed but cycling is something that gives me so much freedom - freedom to explore the world, freedom to travel and most importantly the freedom to get away from all the stress of school, meetings, all the stupid dumb shit that comes with being involved in various projects, I'm sure you all know the feeling. Cycling allows me to leave all that behind and clear my mind for a few hours, it allows me to think about the things that actually matter, the things that may actually have some sort of an impact and won't just be forgotten in a matter of seconds and just enjoy the little things in life. And hey, I have to do some sports right? I guess it takes care of that too, I'm going to be cycling to France soon with a friend for the weekend, it's a 240km trip in total and I can't wait, seriously, if I could I'd go now. I'll be sure to let you all know if I survive that trip, it's gonna be pretty epic!